New Year Revolution #3.

Get back to God.

There was a time when every morning I would get up early, grab a cup of coffee and start the day with quiet time, prayer, bible study homework, and journaling. In the summer, my favorite place to do this is the dining room or, if it’s not too hot and humid, the back porch. In the winter, I love the living room with the fire place going. *as an aside, our fire place has been down all season so far and I am very bitter about it…part is “on order.”*

I am a book freak. I love everything about books: their weight, the texture of the paper, the way they can be spread out all around me, the opportunity to highlight and underline. So far, I have not be interested in nor tempted by Kindles or Nooks and have told My Man I have no desire for anything like them. *he sees them as an opportunity for me to get rid of some of these books…ain’t happening.*

Somewhere over the last year, I have lost my desire for this time I have set aside for years. I do think it began when bff, Beth became sick. When she passed away, I think I was just so shocked by it all that I didn’t know what to say, or pray or journal about. When I look back at my journals *which are to be burned upon my passing* I see half-empty pages; short sentences; obvious tear drop ripples in the paper. I picked myself up, though, and eventually got back to it.

Please don’t misunderstand me. I did not and have not turned away from God.

Having said that, however, I must be honest and share with you that I haven’t had a whole lot to say to Him this year. At least not on paper or on my knees during my designated quiet time. However, I have never felt His presence so closely as I have this year. Maybe that is why I haven’t felt the need to journal every thought. He is so present in my life that I don’t need to. I realized recently that if I am not verbalizing a thought, I am praying it. If I’m not writing it down, it is a meditation or a chant in my head; in my heart. As I drive, as I work, as I crochet, as I sit silently, I am offering up, very often, short arrow prayers straight and to the point.

I have felt the nudge, His nudge, the last month or so, to get back to it. January 9, our bible study group is beginning this study. I love me some Beth Moore. I never knew bible study could be so cool, until I started following Beth. And this study? Oh, this study came out just in time. If you think that God doesn’t have every single detail of your life planned out…look at mine. This last year has been such a time of pain and tragedy and trial in my life and for my family. If you are not familiar with the Book of James, read how James begins *following a one verse introduction* “ 2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance.” NIV.

Now tell me that God didn’t plan the perfect timing for the release of this new bible study by my favorite teacher.

“Consider it pure joy…”

I believe I shall.

Love you guys. Merry Christmas!

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  1. When we are unable to pray, the Holy Spirit intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express.

    I still do not like that verse, but Beth said she discusses it specifically in the study. The Greek words there are quite the tongue twister.

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  2. Yes, I have relied on that verse over and over this year.

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  3. Okay, you're spooking me a little, because that verse (and the book of James in general) just will NOT leave me alone. The one time recently that I got up to have some Quiet Time, I had planned to study Ephesians, but NO. It had to be James. Maybe I should do the Beth Moore study, too?

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  4. Hmmmm….Jeni…maybe you SHOULD.

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