Sunrise.

As I sit in my Mamie’s chair in the living room, I face directly to the East.

The sun is just peeking over the roof line of the house behind ours and no matter how I position myself, pours over my face the warmth and promise that is a new day.

It’s going to be a difficult day. For us…we are soon packing up our brood, all of the food for our Thanksgiving Feast and heading South to Dumfries. There will be cooking, packing, cleaning, tears and yes…laughter. My Creator did not make me to cry my way through every day. Snippets of sadness; often rivers of tears do happen. And there was a time in my life, not so very long ago, when I was That Girl, that I would have wallowed in my pain and sadness and the tears and the anger and would never have let it go. But now I am This Girl. I will have tears today. *confession: have already had tears today* I will also laugh and probably even snarl a little out of impatience. I will be, after all, with all three of my children, my husband and my father-in-law, lol.

The difference in becoming This Girl, though, is that my tears, my sadness, my heart break is less often for my own pain and almost always felt for the pain of others. It is going to be an unbearable day for the others in my life. Not only my own immediate family, but also my extended family, friends, neighbors. Everyone of whom has loss, tragedy, sadness in their lives.

Think of your others today. Pray for them. Call them. Hug them.

Love you guys. See y’all tomorrow and Happy Thanksgiving.

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  1. My heart is with you, your folks and Jenny today. I so enjoy your blog and agree with Mom and Dad that your writing so eloquently expresses your thoughts and feelings. When you write about dealing with your heart wrenching losses, I am living the experience through your words, tears running down my cheeks. I don't get to be with you enough, but I think of you every single day. I am so thankful you are in my life! Love you!

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