Quiet time this week has been pulled from Sarah Young’s, Jesus Calling. Today’s devotion, September 17, is all about planning and the need to control. (Sarah references 1 Peter 5:6-7; Proverbs 16:9 and Psalm 37:5)
I am a huge sufferer of this illness.
I flip through my journal to document my freakish need to plan and control. Page after page, day after day, I am writing lists of wants, needs, to dos, planning, planning, controlling, controlling.
When I stop to read the actual pages, I find that rarely was I able to complete even two things on the list let alone have complete control over that list.
Why? Because I’m so wrapped up in the “need to control” that I forget to consult “the One who controls all.”
Oh I pretend to consult Him…”this is what You want me to do, right, Lord?” as I’m dotting the i’s and crossing the t’s of my list.
My lists and plans and freaky control needs are so vast and huge that I will NEVER be able to complete them and satisfy them.
As I thought about this during my quiet time today, I realized that there is a direct link between the number and length of my lists and plans and the time I spend praying, consulting, listening to God. The former is much longer and greater when the latter is few and far between.
This morning, I am changing that. Fran, thank you for the head’s up on the need to change my priorities.
Love you guys!